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Literary lobotomy

Squelch squelch squelch squish squish squish

I’m having a difficult time crafting something beautiful. I feel overwhelmed with the possibilities, swallowed by them as though I were in a whale. I only have guts and slime to work with. I can’t tell which anatomical part is what. All is hazed in similarity and goo. The same tissue and muscle and fat. Mostly fat. I consume it. Try to eat my way out. Bite after bite. Piece of undifferentiated goblet after another.

Squelch. Squelch. Squelch. Squish. Squish. Squish.

The space widens. So do I. The distance between us remains the same, though. And I need to escape. I need to be able to write something worthwhile. But there is little light here and on the outside there was and I need to get there. There’s beauty. Not gunk. Gunk that isn’t moving all that much. Why isn’t this working? Are the whale’s guts growing as I do, moving away and away from me like a wall I can never touch? Yet I touch. I eat. I devour.

Squelch. Squelch. Squelch. Squish. Squish. Squish.

My hands wear to nubs with all the weight, my teeth dull to gummy strings, my eyes are closed while I chomp then suck then slurp in that order. How did I get here? I don’t remember. Was I always here? I don’t remember. What’s around? The same tissue and muscle and fat. Mostly fat. But it’s less and less and I’m more and more. I eat. I know eating. My other memories are failing me. Except one of this story that I heard about a guy who got gulped up by a whale. What happened? He must’ve survived because it was told and people like happy stories and I like being happy and eat, eat, eating makes me happy.

Squelch. Squelch. Squelch. Squish. Squish. Squish.

I’m big.

Squelch. Squelchsquelch. Squish. Squishsquish.

I hungry

squelchsquelchsquelchsquishsquishsquish

i mmm, mmm, mmmmmmmmmm until there is no more mmmm to mmmm and my eyes are bad but I can smell some liquid’s around and its salty like mmm and I want more mmmm and I smell some mmm with tissue and muscle and fat but mostly fat and it’s a small gulp like a worm or a person and I want more

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About kacperniburski

I am searching for something in between the letters.

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