she said it meant nothing and i suppose it didn’t which is why i feel like that now * she fucked another guy her legs i kissed gently hands that i held afraid the first time lips i spoke to and talked to and respected because they said some pretty good things like how she … Continue reading
she has already moved on to all ready putting on makeup preparing for the day watch ruin run from i while she tries to kiss me and i say with a mouth that remembers you said that last time and look where we are which is in my car engine ready after a turn driving … Continue reading
love gave me the worst love of my life and i suppose i still loved it best of all * you feel like shit but at least that means you’re still making waste still feeling still have all this shit to lose * relationships are the remains of corpses that sired you into it all … Continue reading
it is a shame that after all the disasters bred into what we consume there is only art to make it better and the realization later when stuffed like roadkill with maggots that art is not enough * i think i will not last if only because lasting means that i will have to not … Continue reading
the moon and earth were born from breaking so it is no wonder we hurt so much realizing soon how sad it is that the earth and moon cannot hurt but still break like us against the loneliness of our birth * with total fire it is common to mistake the smoke for clouds of … Continue reading
women are universes giving birth to universes that tie expanding infinity to the outstretched fingers of the baby that becomes a girl who will grope the night sky with loneliness * and then we were two people sitting together with nothing to do but watch the sun die into the abyss wondering if it cries … Continue reading
the map bumps and waves with ridges that aren’t mountains just the suffering swelling from the beginning with water ready to wet the world in burning like a fire in winter or the one at the top of the snowy peak that keeps me alive fingers footing a path after i’ve lost my way back … Continue reading
it was the year without days and it only took a few seconds where you were on the Chilean sands where she always wanted to go because there’s the mountains and the ocean and the two of you in between the blue and blue and her bluest of all despite being here finally here with … Continue reading
writing on my love doesn’t feel as good as writing on my love * of love there isn’t enough off love there is a single letter difference is a bedmate a stubbed toe and a betrayal when you find your bedmate f’ing someone else toe slamming into furniture that is yours but feels foreign … Continue reading
she says she cheated on me and i am so tired all of a sudden and there’s a place to sleep here somewhere though it used to be her stomach in summer or a shoulder in winter but i can’t tell the outside from the inside now and so i look back to her as … Continue reading