you’re 24 with eyes closed to books you haven’t read songs you haven’t played canvases you haven’t touched friends you haven’t seen jokes you haven’t told waiting to turn 25 with whatever it is that happens when you no longer do * i am the ghost i was warned of when i was living happy … Continue reading
do not go back to those who backed into not who go to done who have gone to those who leave you asking who you were with * find those who need not to be found and who look at you with eyes weeping the possible horror of the loss of their independence that attracts … Continue reading
the following are starved ideas who know that hunger is knows no idealism * do no harm but do not avoid it * do no harm but harm no dos * again we begin again * i promise it is nothing – something she said after everything * let’s be friends – she … Continue reading
it was loneliness that made me meet her though after unmade and meaty imploding from the indigestion of the inside i began to know true loneliness that only the stars long since dead in the sky know with their shining relentless still painful light * i have spent a lifetime trying to love the bits … Continue reading
to be judged upon a mistake is to determine the weather by a single cloud to determine disease by a baseless bacteria to fall in love with a glance though i’ll admit that i should’ve looked away then to avoid the awesome mistake of you weathering into another’s sick love * i don’t mean to … Continue reading
love, broken but hearty hoping for fill * i am not devastated for i feel as though i can still grab your hand though the lack of it feeling i has led to devastation of what i am not * how is it that that which gave the world warmth doesn’t burn it all down … Continue reading
here comes the morning hunting hungry for dreams with a sky like a bruise from yesterday’s battle found still in her throat with a pulse that is a wild animal a laughing hyena clawing to get out and a voice remaining silent against the resting noise not beat but beating not gone but going to … Continue reading
and then there he is in the middle of the sun that could’ve made for a beautiful day if he wasn’t in front of it and could’ve spread singly into a beautiful flower behind me if i weren’t there either, telling me as a gentleman would how he fucked my girlfriend in shaky, full arms … Continue reading
what if there was no what if but only there was * you should’ve seen me when i didn’t see me and focused on what i looked like to people like looking you * all are hurt only few heal only a few gaze from the garbage to the gases above that fall one lonely … Continue reading
isn’t there a place where i can burrow myself deep and dirty in you without having to see others watching me hide in your shade like a sun behind a tree hoping not to burn those that need it like i soiled still and reaching for you against the empty space that suffocates the stars … Continue reading