Then or then

I wish to forget all

for then I will not poison

the memories

I can’t remember

and those I can’t change

with fabrications of myself now

for they never were for me

even if they were me

when I was happy or sad

new or rewarded

and with the disease

I will be healed

by the purest now

not then or then

and then,

I’ll have everything

I’ll have

as nothing more than

the morning dew in summer

or that love

in that winter

I once loved

before the hemorrhaging spring

*

I say things

just to say things

and to make something

worth saying

so I can’t say

it wasn’t said

and that’s saying something

worth making