do you understand that you’ll never understand that there’s nothing understood except for the fact that all try for understanding but fail both you and do and failing too * if only we weren’t bred from a god who took a rest on the seventh day maybe we would have accomplished much more and not … Continue reading
we were told a man killed himself here and we asked what kind of man and were told a man who would kill himself here so we looked for the kind of man for a while coming back playing here building forts out of rope we found having battles that never transpired but if did … Continue reading
the subway sea chugs on while i snorkel air from the outside wondering what fish i’ll smell this time and whether its just me soaked with this place and its people who gasp scream for help i’m drowning i can’t swim there was just too much to do i was always so busy so full … Continue reading
only once it dries do fish notice water * organs sing a note of health and reorganization of my body towards it without me remembering that there is no better job at reshuffling than cancer * i imagine the first time someone said hello the receiver felt just as sad to have to invent a way … Continue reading
broken and breaking he bleeds he onto me through transparent blood that hasn’t yet breathed his life and that blocks his breath now in sobs of i could’ve done better you see i could’ve been someone if i only did see and you hadn’t been and i want to tell him that i barely feel … Continue reading
life and death is a kissing curse where one sees the universe in reverse from closed to open with a child knowing adult unknowing aged knowing there is no more than unknowing as all spreads too far away * does the doctor see death in my eyes or just his own reflected through empty, black … Continue reading
meteors will collide safety pins will poke relationships will fail and before and after the small, hand-worn apocalypses that make you let go and make dinosaurs extinct you’ll only ever find you finding you and inside a hope that you are enough for you for everyone else has died from the meteors or the pins … Continue reading
when bad times come keep writing when rejected from a journal keep writing when you feel like you can’t keep writing keep writing and maybe you’ll find that all anything amounts to is that good feeling of acceptance deep in you like a word you haven’t found yet but will if you keep writing * … Continue reading
there is a point when you are young and find no point in growing old besides the answer itself which leaves you with words you spent time learning only to later learn that they aren’t true and true isn’t true and and isn’t and and is isn’t but also is sometimes particularly as you age … Continue reading
i held the baby in my hands life breathing life but it was slippery or i was both of us nervous to meet meat it slipping onto the floor not wanting to be picked up like thanksgiving turkey i am hungry where’s the knife i am starving where’s the fork i have never eaten a … Continue reading