Don’t fade into mediocrity
I used to tell myself
when I was younger
and slowly fading
Don’t fade into mediocrity
do it full
don’t stop
unless stopping means
to do it completely
Don’t fade into mediocrity
that dead normal
that glazed over hump
that has water and the promise of survival
but is dry and boring
unlike the sharp extremes
more or less
the more and the less
which are lonely existences
where there is nothing but struggle
and pain and loss
and the inability to feel content anywhere
which is the only way to surge
with life
even if you’re gurgling blood
Don’t fade into mediocrity
and the winding path of I could have
if only things were different
and I wasn’t bitched
and my parents were there
and I bought that one thing that one day
because no one has it easy
and everyone has it worse than that
Don’t fade into mediocrity
write something better
something less clunky
and more ebullient
and fulfilling and fluid
like eyes on the sun see no shadow
or hang onto a edge of cliff
to see both heaven and hell balanced
or just: don’t fade
Don’t fade into mediocrity
make people afraid of you
distant from you
and what you say
which you’ve been told is alienating and isolating
and makes them uneasy
because they’ve never been asked what
their most embarrassing moment was
before they even knew your name
which you may think is pretty embarrassing
but they haven’t heard your name yet
Don’t fade into mediocrity
with what you’ve heard is a good idea
that people before and people after
have been getting
like the wants of a wild car
and a house
and the slipshod stability
of happiness then and then
it never comes
because you never will
when you’re waiting
on you
when you are right here
and also there
still waiting
on you
Don’t fade into mediocrity
by assuming there’s some way not to be normal
when all are bonked and boozed and miserable
with eyes lost and confused and focusing
on nothing on at all until they focus
on you
who isn’t focusing on anything
until you focus
on them
Don’t fade into mediocrity
while telling people not to do something
like fading into mediocrity
because people always have advice
and things to avoid
and hopes and dreams
and lies we fill ourselves with to make ourselves filled
as a way to avoid the possibility
that they are mediocre
and if not
they are ends of not or not
and both may be worse
because everyone else may be not normal too
and you wanted to be special
and for people to notice
while meanwhile
you fade just like them
Don’t fade into mediocrity
by fading out of it
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