this is how you fade

it starts by not starting

just a build up

of little things like the atoms

that create the universe

but didn’t give you the sight

to see that corner there

or the words to say

you can’t stay and really need to go

or mistaking a tv for a window

and the summer sun as the

main perpetuator in creating cancer

and you

who is lucky

to get cancer and sun

except for those days

where clouds

or are they pollution puffs

shadow the sky

showing where heaven ends

and descends to hell

slowly

like the atoms

that are at the edge of the universe

lonely and forgotten

creating and being created

just as you are

spending days

in an impression of misery

and feeling pressed

and in love with something

you haven’t quite met yet

like love itself maybe

you aren’t sure

because the tv flickers again

and outside is grizzly

while the sun still hides

from you