old love

the most difficult

thing will be to

find love when

there is no love

and then

remembering that

love before love

is different

than love after love

even more so

than love during love

which is always difficult

for sometimes

there is no love

though love is said the most

of any time

*

the shortest sentence

of all of life

is he shot himself

*

i’m old

and am to blame

that i never learned

how to stay young

just spent time

trying to become something good

when i’m older

and i am

real bad in fact

at staying young

like a blameless baby

though i am not

for even then

i was growing

into this

or maybe something older

that is forgetful

like a blameless baby

not remembering how to walk

or how old i am

not walking and sitting

remembering

how young i was

when i was

walking and aging

and staying young

until then