carnival prize isn’t fair

there is something to be said

about not having the words yet

i just don’t know

how to say it at the moment

*

without god

i am left to

believe that what

i believe

leaves me as i

and that is a bit

unfortunate because

i am told

there is so much more

than myself and the gods

i worship

*

the point

of all of this

is to find the soul

then to convince yourself

that it doesn’t exist

because what kind of use

is such flaky language anyways

besides in using

such flaky language

that makes some people nod

and say ah

you’ve found the point

and you

soulless scum

pointing here

like a kid

to cotton candy

who bellows

yes

that one

that is my

everything