a helicopter pilot, for example

it is said

that i am half

a whole

but also

a whole half

which leaves me

wondering why

i am filled

with hopes and dreams

of what i am not having

*

as you grow

you learn that

drinking is bad

for you because

it eats away at you

and your comprehension

of bad

leaving little holes of

empty dead space

which you are sure aren’t

any good

but that fit only – her –

the living thing that made

you drink in the first place

and make you drink more

to try to drown her

from crawling like a

baby

your baby

always giving more space

to the air that feeds

and grows as you

do

and as you don’t

too

*

life dies

death lives

and

art wills

as artists willed