in the future there will be less of me

it is a pain

not feeling much of anything

but still not being still

and without the pain of it is

*

i would tell you

my opinion about politics

but i’m told that this

wouldn’t be very political

*

i am looking

for the line

that makes me stop

looking

and finally

looks back at all

i am

even when

unaligned

*

in the future

i will read

all i did

and say how

stupid i was

and how stupid

i am for reading

instead of writing

now

*

i am sure that one day

my writing will embarrass me

because i will realize

that not enough days

were spent writing what

i was sure of

and even less

on what embarrassed me

to not know