on no

they will tell you

that you cannot do it

and they will be right

for you cannot now

with them there talking

but only untold

and willed

and alone

can you

have it done

*

they will say

that you can’t

and this is true

for you cannot

not yet

where you are

not ready

not supported

not what you need to be

when you need to be

away from them

with only yourself

to listen to

*

cannibalize creatures

you have conjured

to show them the real darkness

that you can inspire

*

i sometimes dread

things that no longer matter

like the flowers that died last season

or the bits of me that did too

watching them wilt

*

if only there was a chance

that if only wasn’t a chance

then i’d remain more than

the remains of i

after you left only if

you didn’t didn’t so much