that that’s left

when was the moment

you thought you weren’t valuable

anymore

was it when you had

all the memories

and none of the friends

when life stewed in nine months

matured in many more

and was ruined in ten seconds

by another mix just as complicated

and long

when i was supposed to

take you home to stare at you

all night

when i didn’t

when i asked if you

could stay still

against the disaster of every day

if you could understand love

then realize the loss of it

is love too

if you could leave the moon

in the sky tonight

if you could not ask

about when anymore

for it is just a chicken

bent up over eggs that take time

and a comfortable place with hot chocolate

a fire

your arms

if you could go back to then

when there was a then then

when there wasn’t too

you there without a there

sitting alone

when i’d see the civilizations

rising and falling

between breathes

when you’d cheat on me

when you’d promise you wouldn’t

when i’d have more to say

but wouldn’t

because there would be more

of when

right

right

right