bestiality

my mother

gave birth to me

on all fours

sweating out pain

and bleeding

daylight that brought

news from outside earth

the always vacuous

and never friendly

coughs of breath

gone and mistaken

spent

asking for someone

to end her

before this does

while she leaks

and i form into a solid

that takes up her space

ground becoming ground

by not moving

and dying from the beginning

and she stays stuck

with the goo of me

ready to be entered again

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my grandmother

said that i have her heart

for it is good and kind

and careful not to overflow

with itself

but she died from

cardiac disease

so i’ve started to behave badly

in memory of her

and the beating boy who was