then better than then

i remember

when you were unforgettable

like the ocean hugging a lonely log

filled with so much desire

to farm the world

of its oxygen

and give it all back to dirt

and flowers born yet

without heads

for they are recalling yours

sniffing seeds of the past

that swore to never let go of

the laughter that chased me around

the room

where we planned for the end of the world

and how to begin a new one

by first

breathing

to make it easy

then stopping

to make it easier

to come slowly now

with me into forever’s forever

even if you are not ready

because how can you be

when there is so much lost to the lost

already

like belly button lint

or childhood toys

or love

suspended in the same dirt again

suffocating with memories

and an alcoholic piss

reserved for stumbling through

though i am not drunk

but look how i still drink for

the both of us

too gone to go

newhere else