could’ve been could

we said goodbye for good

and i realized in the double meaning

that this shows how we were meant to be together

because we were tied again like in the beginning

with silence and unknowing

until we became two beings trying not to cry

understanding no better

and failing failing failing

so well

*

i have tried to do my best

but my best is trying

and i don’t have much better

*

i want you and peace

she says to me

while i feel like sleeping

eyes heavy mud that stick to close

the open wound pouring sight inside of me

when it could instead be her

but she was with another

and i am an other now

with peace but wanting still

*

can i tell you it is okay

if i have told

all i can

and it still isn’t